I remember a conversation I had with a friend last summer. She told me that she was tired of living on the line. She was tired of rationing every single penny she spent. That was the difference between having $2 ramen noodles for dinner and having a nice meal- even if it was home cooked with very few ingredients.
Last night a few friends and I had a good laugh about our not-so-glory days. One friend showed us bar soap she had got from the dollar store because she was too broke to go and shop in another place. All three of us had a good laugh about that.
Another friend shared another story about when her housing with her mother was terminated, and they had to live in an uncompleted building. And when she had to use the toilet, she had to use newspapers in the pit latrine.
That too, was funny. Well, not really. But we were in a safe laugh-at-my-pain space.
Finally, another friend told us about her course registration woes- emailing professors and hopping from class to class because there was a hold on her student account. We also recounted a story our church pastor had told us about his days as a broke college student.
He would send his checks to the bank through the postal system, hoping that when they eventually arrived at the bank, some money would have been deposited into his account. When there was no money, he would tell the bank that there was an error, and that he was waiting to get confirmation from his parents back home.
We had a good laugh about this, too.
There was fellowship and love in that room, which is why we each felt vulnerable enough to share unpleasant circumstances from our past. We each had experienced God’s love and kindness and we could laugh over things that really were not funny.
I just had a conversation with a friend, who was telling me about her financial burdens, taking care of her parents and two siblings-by-adjunct.
She told me that at this moment, she had $5 in her bank account. That, too made me laugh really hard because I remembered once when I had only $7 in my bank account and I basically hibernated at home to avoid any cost. I could not even afford to go outside and stand in the sunlight, so that I would get hungry but too broke to eat.
We shared a generous laugh over that as well.
Don’t worry about me, I’m not at $7 broke anymore, but I do know that I am not at the financial abundance that I pray for. And I know that I will get there- to a place where money literally is an afterthought. When I no longer have to budget for anything because I know that I have an all sufficient God. Not even in the spiritual “I believe Jesus will do it” sort of way, but in the “I know that God will provide” sort of way. Because my bank account will be proof of that sufficiency.
Whenever I’m worried, I think about people in the bible who have come from nothing and made something out of their lives. I think about the God who never forsakes His children.
You may not even resonate with this post, but I want you to know that no matter what your need is- it may not be financial- God will do it for you!
Heck, you may be at a very happy place and recently come to your breakthrough. But for future hard times, remember that God will be with you.
I want you to know that God has you in the palm of His hands. He has you as the first and last thought on His mind. Every.Single.Moment.
Hold on, hang in there. Have a good laugh and it will be alright.
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Hi Alheri! I see the challenges are making you strong which is what challenges should do. Keep growing strong!
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Awww thanks! And hopefully I learn the lessons I need and move onto bountiful days haha!
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“Not even in the spiritual “I believe Jesus will do it” sort of way, but in the “I know that God will provide” sort of way. Because my bank account will be proof of that sufficiency.” – I love this statement. Haha!!! God bless you for sharing Alheri. 🙂
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Haha! Thank you. We miss you on here. Welcome back. 🙂
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Thank you! 😊 I missed the blog very much too. It’s good to be back. 😊
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Praise God for you Alheri, I needed to hear this. As I type this, I’m currently off the meal plan in my school and staying in a friend’s dorm because my school won’t let me stay on-campus as we still owe. My account is practically empty. I can’t remember the last time in the past two weeks I had something that wasn’t hot-water noodles or fruits a friend gets out of the cafeteria. I’ve been hungry to distraction and cried myself to sleep a lot of times last week. But through it all, I know God sees, and has not abandoned me! I literally cried reading your ‘It doesn’t make sense’ post because it almost exactly describes my situation rn. Philippians 4:12-13 has been coming to my mind lately: ”I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” I thank Jesus for what he continues to do in your life. I pray he continues to bless you, and to make you a source of encouragement and inspiration to others, amen.
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Hey, thank you so much for sharing this. Would you mind sending me a personal email at msalheri@gmail.com
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I was never the broke college student because I never thought I could afford college :).
I do know that as a young family we seemed to live paycheck to paycheck. When people would ask how we managed I would tell them that I wasn’t exactly sure so I knew it had to be God. I also told them we did not always have what we wanted but we always had what we needed…..we always had clothes to wear (not many) and we always had something to eat so life was good.
Hang in there! Life is not possessions, life is not money, life is God given relationships and it is good :).
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“Hang in there! Life is not possessions, life is not money, life is God given relationships and it is good.”
Our dear grandma has said it even better than I did! Thank you. Even with my friends, sometimes we look back and wonder how we made it through and it really only could have been God. He’s amazing.
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I sometimes think it is good we don’t see the road ahead and where it detours through. That way we just take in on faith. You are an encouragement to others!
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Aww thank you Grandma! 🙂 I wonder how our lives would be if we saw even a little about our future. But spiritually speaking, we don’t need to haha, because God’s got us! ❤
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Often times we witness some unprintable scenarios in the course of our daily chores. And later wonder ah how was such overcome? Beyond imagination. God so provides in such a way that no one can explain. Like a family of four or five living on #18000 salary a month (and today $1 equals about #425.00). And even at that Kwara State et al in Nigeria currently owe such workers even more than four months now. Can one ever imagin how on earth such families with only the family head emplyed survive? Even Covey am sure can not explain how such families do. Abd they are very many like that in may other countries. Just pause for Boko Haram. Am talking of states that are outwardly state. God is wonderful.
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Yeah, that’s definitely true. Although I’m deeply disturbed by the extreme poverty in the world. I believe that people need a certain base income or livelihood in order to actualize their dreams and gifts. But oh well, this world is messed up by extreme inequality and it’s disheartening.
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Is it weird that i miss your old “meet Alheri” picture????
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Haha, which one? I don’t even remember what it was. See what snapchat and filters have caused in this life?
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The one with you sitting. i think you had a black jacket on.
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Ahh, okay I’ll find it for you haha.
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