My father is very doting. As old as I am, he fondly whistles songs into my ears, pulls my cheeks, and sings for joy whenever he sees me again after a long time. Sometimes, my mother teases him that he loves me (and all my siblings, as a matter of fact) that if he could, he would swallow us so that we could all be inside his stomach and never leave him again.
This evening at mass, I sat behind a family that had of two young girls- probably 8/9 years old and 6/7 years old. The younger girl was soon hitched on her father’s side, and I wondered why the father would carry such a big girl, who was obviously heavy. In my mind, I was like “see this old woman acting like a baby”, and then I imagined if I would oblige Lucia, my sister, had she made such a demand. When I realized I probably wouldn’t, something else came to my mind.
Why would such a big girl want her daddy to carry her? And not just that, why would the daddy actually carry her? I wondered if this is an accurate analogy of how God loves us. I realized at that point that I my mind was wandering off, and I snapped back into reality.
When it was time for the responsorial psalm, I sang the response to the psalm with great joy in my heart. The response to the psalm was “Bless the Lord oh my soul, and all that is within me, bless His holy name”. I was so moved by the psalm that I quickly looked up the psalm on the internet, and read through the entire psalm.
1 Praise the Lord, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the Lord, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
6 The Lord works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The Lord is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
15 The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting
the Lord’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
18 with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.
19 The Lord has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Praise the Lord, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
21 Praise the Lord, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the Lord, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the Lord, my soul.
Verse 13 immediately spoke to me. When I read that verse, my mind translated it as “The Lord indulges his children, He cherishes us, He shows us affection, He favors us. So yes, if I were tugging at God’s side, asking Him to hitch me onto His side, He absolutely will.
This realization was absolutely moving for me, and I was almost in tears. It dawned on me that God listens to the little questions we have in our heart and He answers them. He responds when we call upon Him, and He leads us to scriptures that clear our confusion.
One day, I was listening to a sermon by my favorite person in the world, and he mentioned that when he is confused about something in the bible, he prays to God for an explanation. This was quite new to me because whenever I am confused about a scripture, I immediately surf the world wide web, seeking answers. But alas, prayer works wonders.
Let your thoughts be on God, and He will reveal Himself to you in the most mundane experiences.